132

=[

if i was heavier than yesterday i would shoot myself

a couple hours ago i had soup and some water too

im just going to start eating really little cal meals

like a serving of mashed potatoes (90 cals, a serving of green beans 20 cals, and a peice of 35 cal bread)

i need to get rid of this stubborn fat

i want to like reboot my metabolism because it's starting to go against me

any ideas?! im desperate...

ughh and im having boy trouble

i guess he's sad that im avoiding him....but whatever, it's what you get when you flat out lie to me, ya know? (i blocked him on aim and deleted him on myspace)

if im not going to be someone's number one choice they're deffinately not worth my time and heartbreak

xoxo

Kat

132.4?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!

130.6

ughh i wish i wasn't so fucking FAT

this is sooo annoying

im a failure at life

special k and that's it now

i don't even want a costume this year if i'll look like a whale

im seriously starting to decide against it

: [

im very upset now

grrr

i wish i had real friends that would stick by me

and not feed me lies

i wish i was 117, so i didn't look like this

i can't believe i let myself go so much

im crying

this is the worst

MY NEW GOAL: is to be 120 by thanksgiving

so i have 32 days, my fatass better do it

ALSO: i want to lose 2 pounds by saturday (it's the halloween party im going to)

**EDIT**

it's 12, and i just had a bowl of special k, i have to go to work in about 25 mins, but i packed a container of milk, a mug and special k.

**EDIT**

so at work i had more special k and i had some carrot and celery sticks in lite dressing

then i got home and had 2 peices of 35 cal bread with hommus

xoxo

Kat

society made me fat, girl what's the deal with that

so i've decided

that i fucking hate girls

specially ones who lie about absolutely EVERYTHING

yea, you're skinny pretty and have nice tits

who fucking cares when you have a personality as sucky as yours

fucking my boyfriend and lying about going out with him/living with him

girl, you crossed the line.........

well i didn't weigh myself today but i've had:

bowl of honey bunches of oats

sandwich

hot cocoa

and 2 crab cakes

FATASS i know

i got my tattoo covered today, which is very exciting. it's really pretty too, it was $75 but i love it.

my arm's actually skinny haha, it's SOOO SWOLLEN!

im so sick of my life right now, and this state

i just want to take my chances and move to vegas with my friends

xoxo

Kat

130.6!!!

wow i did really good! 131.4 to 130.6 in 2 days woot
today im going to have special k for breakfast, a mini burrito at work (55 cal wrap and 60 cal refried beans)
and i'll probably bring soup too because im going to be there 8 hours and im going to get my friend after
im really excited about getting this tattoo covered, i hate it (my ex did it)
i want to be in the 120s by halloween, i must
i've cut out all bad foods NO MORE PIZZA lol
and no sweets
i have all new foods:
vegan mayo
35 cal bread
veggie ham
wraps
refried beans
instant mashed potatoes (you can mix a couple spoonfuls with water and make a low cal soup type of thing lol
2 boxes of special k
and soup

so i should be eating a lot better now
none of those foods are really that high in calories.
well i have to get ready
i probably won't update later, im really busy tonight, but i'll tell you how today went tomorrow hopefully



xoxo
Kat